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False Shepherds: how to avoid con
artists and other human wolves in shepherds' clothing
One of the biggest
and most painful problems that ritual abuse and mind control survivors encounter
as they begin to recover, is that they were so brutally conditioned to obey
their human controllers that they often have great difficulty relying on their
own judgment. It's easier to rely on others to tell them what to think,
do, and believe than to rely on their own judgment and gut instincts. Survivors
may also feel insecure and may have alter-states that have polarized opinions,
judgment, needs and mental/emotional triggers and conditioning.
This web page was
written by two survivors who were dangerously victimized and retraumatized by
such con artists. The writers hope that this page will help fellow survivors and
pro-survivors to avoid making similar mistakes in judgment.
Common tactics of victimizing
con artists Revictimizer
groups and organizations
This
informative book - Wolves in Sheep's Clothing: An Investigation into
Georgia's Covert Satanic Cults - was published in 1991 and was available
through Total Life Ministries in Clarkdale, Georgia. Although we now know that
the crimes perpetrated by such individuals are motivated by human desires, and
mental and emotional illnesses, some still believe that the perpetrators are
motivated, controlled, and even inhabited by the devil!
Such
beliefs may be reinforced by perpetrators to influence others to fear them and
their "supernatural powers".
Common
tactics reportedly used by victimizing con artists
by Kathleen Sullivan
In 2002, I became
alarmed by the number of recovering ritual abuse and mind control survivors who
told me that they, too, were victimized by remorseless perpetrators pretending
to be pro-survivors. To openly address this situation, I wrote an Internet
posting entitled Perp Games. I hope that the posting, reproduced below,
will help fellow survivors and pro-survivors to identify some of the most common
tactics reportedly used by dangerous con artists.
I've
figured out the following patterns, with the input of other victimized
survivors who are sick and tired of being revictimized and tricked and used:
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By
perps making themselves the experts on mind control, people will be
dependent on them for information instead of looking for other, more valid
sources of information.
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By
being experts, especially when claiming to be under attack by the bad
guys, they make survivors feel sorry for them, make them feel like they're
on the same side. Then the survivors will go to them for help and
information. This gives the perps the grand opportunity to reaccess
survivors via their previously installed [mental conditioning] and then
either mess them up royally or gain their trust and get them to give the
perps all their documentation and memories so that the CIA, et al,
can then go through their records and destroy anything that can
connect the survivors in any remaining way to them. It's also a way to
monitor those of us who are breaking programming, to see if further
intervention needs to be done to get us back under control or to silence
us - sometimes by suggestions of suiciding.
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Said
perps in sheeps' clothing also use some revictimized survivors ...to
promote the perps and thereby get other survivors to trust and come to
them. After all, if the outspoken survivor says the perp is safe and
legit, other survivors are a lot more likely to risk divulging personal
information to the perps.
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Said
perps also are able to control what information goes out to the public by
being "the" experts on mind-control, etc. They not only can make
sure what is not said by all agreeing not to bring up those
particular subjects, but they can also make the survivor community look
psychotic, paranoid, etc. by pandering tainted information to
militia/Patriot/anti-New World Order/White Supremacist groups in books and
personal appearances. By making us look loony or paranoid or conspiracy
nuts since those extremist groups believe us, no one else will take
us seriously. It's perhaps the most effective tool to-date to keep us
disbelieved.
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A
self-acknowledged perp [and independently verified "former" CIA
employee] once bragged to me that their disinformation is a deliberate
combination of something like 95% truth, with 5% unrecognized lies slipped
in. He said this is the most effective form of disinformation. This is why
these experts appear to be very, very credible. They are, except for that
5% bullshit that most people won't realize they've swallowed. And how are
we to know what is the truth and what is lies, since they are the experts
and we don't know any better? This is why I refuse to read their materials
anymore. It messes me up too much and discredits me when I then parrot
what they've said and written. That is also part of the reason why they do
this - to discredit anyone who quotes them.
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By
making themselves to be the experts, we survivors get lazy and depend on
them to speak out for us. It's unfortunately very easy to do. Depending on
them to speak out for us effectively silences us, unless we are being used
as their trained seals, in which case we can say whatever want, as long as
it's the disinfo they channel through us. T
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By
making themselves the experts and then making public claims that
mind-control survivors' methodically implanted screen memories (e.g., UFO
abductions, heads of states being morphed giant lizard alien creatures,
Illuminati ruling the world, etc.) are reality, the perps are deliberately
reinforcing unreality programming in the minds of many, many unfortunate
survivors who have not remembered enough yet to know that it was all a
damnable con game designed to keep them so terrified or hopeless that
they'll never believe they can truly be free. This is, to me, the most
despicable thing these perps are doing - in concert now - to
individual mind-control survivors, and to the survivor community at large.
I hope they fry in hell for this.
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Being
an expert on mind-control is a fairly good source of money if they play it
right, through conference appearances, book sales, etc.
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I
think some of these perps have a personal vested interest in regaining
control of former victims, to keep us from remembering what they've done
to us in the past. If they can get to us before we remember them, then
they can ensure that regardless of what else we may remember from then on,
we will not remember their abuses since they now pose as heroes. It's too
a mental/emotional clash that effectively keeps the abuse memories
suppressed. Only by spending time away from their control, can the older
memories surface and us recognize who and what they really are.
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I've
heard several times that some of these men are taking advantage of the
mental programming of some survivors they're using as trained seals -
particularly those women who have sexual/prostitution programming. At
least once, a pedophile has also accessed the children of a survivor.
Thank God, that survivor figured it out.
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Some
of these perps are on a huge power trip and can't stand not having
tranced-out victims to control. They are such social misfits that to have
normal relationships is probably literally an impossibility for them.
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Some
of these recycled perps are absolutely terrified that they will be
remembered and be slammed in prison. By promoting themselves as good guys
and heroes, and by getting enough of a following, they hope to have enough
people vouching for them that prosecution may be impossible. In other
words, they are covering their butts at a frantic pace. This is not
dissimilar to pedophiles who suddenly have powerful religious conversions
and become staunch church supporters when they realize their victims are
starting to wake up.
After reading my posting, a seasoned
survivor wrote:
One
more phenomenon I believe I've seen is where two perps-in-disguise attack each
other. This tends to polarize survivors and they tend to pick sides,
believing if one is unsafe, the other must be safe. I think this is a
game. It has the advantage of sending survivors to one side or the
other, and promoting loyalty where there might otherwise not be any particular
trust of either side. The irony is that, in at least some cases, I
believe neither side is safe. Survivors are fiercely loyal, and will
defend someone they believe to be attacked by a perp. It also divides
the survivor community and creates discord among survivors.
It's
really discouraging sometimes, to see just how badly the survivor community
has been infiltrated and manipulated. But I think over time, it is
getting exposed. The essential thing is for each of us to get in touch
with our inner sense of wisdom, and always keep checking things out against
that, instead of relying on anyone else's "authority" as some kind
of substitute for our own judgment. I think survivors are particularly
vulnerable to relying on authority due to our own past programming.
Most of these con
artists seem to be sociopaths who enjoy toying with, using, and abusing
"weaker" individuals. Because they have not developed empathy and are
unable to emotionally connect with or care about others, they have to work extra
hard to seem caring while gaining our trust. Oftentimes, they will use words and
actions to confuse us. I usually have the sensation, after being in the presence
of such an individual, of having been so sucked into his or her personality that
I come away, feeling less sure of myself. Because the most skilled con artists
enter our lives more carefully and slowly, we may not recognize their motives as
quickly. I have learned, however, that regardless of how slow or fast a con
artist seeks to gain my trust, his or her true, unempathetic, empty personality
will eventually emerge. Even the most skilled con artist cannot fake who he or
she is, forever. One of my favorite quotes is: "you can fool some of the
people all of the time, and all of the people some of the time, but you cannot
fool all of the people all of the time." Even if we are conned at
first, we may eventually realize that we have been taken advantage of.
Abuse and trauma
survivors have absolutely no reason to feel ashamed if they suspect that they
have been taken advantage of by someone. "People-reading" is a social
skill that, given our unique histories, we may not have developed yet. It is
very important that we tell others in our support network if we suspect that
someone is taking advantage of us. We are more likely to go into dangerous
denial and continue to be victimized if we "own" a potential
perpetrator's guilt and keep our possible victimization a secret from others. I
made this mistake several times and nearly lost my life as a result. Even if I
eventually discover that my judgment about another person is incorrect, I
would rather seek input from others than risk being victimized
again.
Con artists who are
experts in formalized mind control can be especially difficult for survivors to
detect if the con artists know which mental and emotional "buttons" to
push via hand signals, verbal cues, and more. This is why I strongly advise
recovering survivors to discuss and analyze new people in their lives with their
established support networks.
Every human being
has the potential of being exploited by individuals and groups who prey on the
vulnerabilities of others. No matter how skilled I may become in analyzing the
behaviors and motivations of others, I may still have hidden "blind
spots" (mental and emotional vulnerabilities and wounds) that I haven't yet
discovered and worked through. This is why I will always ask for advice and
input from people who are more healed, and are more competent judges of
character, if I have an "uh-oh" sensation about another person. Their
seasoned advice helps me to protect myself better, and also helps me to build
and refine my own analytical and "people-reading" social
skills.
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Revictimizer
groups and organizations
The following
article was written by a survivor who was revictimized by con artists who
continue to present themselves as a knowledgeable and concerned Christian
ministry. The survivor gave us permission to post her article in hopes that it
will help other survivors to avoid being victimized by human wolves in
shepherds' clothing.
Dear
Kathleen Sullivan and those who care,
I am currently a licensed professional with almost two decades of practice so
I am not "psychotic" or "delusional."
There is a reason I am writing this letter that reaches beyond the damage that
is done by governments. The abuse I speak of is one that is just as damaging
for victims now.
There
are so many ministries and cults that claim to be able to help victims of
ritual abuse. They have become the new abusers, ones who claim to want to help
victims of cults and of mind control and DID.
At
the end of this letter I will clarify just what was being done to me and
others through these cultic ministries and how seeking help sometimes ends up
in another mind control situation for the government or other abusers.
Not
long ago, I tried to get help through such a ministry. The church seemed so
real and sincere. They knew so much about mind control programming and all the
terminology. They were highly skilled individuals and several of the pastors
had been in law enforcement.
I was desperate for help to leave the area and the handlers that owned me.
When I found out about this ministry, I contacted them and left during
the night, leaving behind everything I owned, including my house. I drove
non-stop during the night for hundreds of miles, to be "safe." I had
never driven much before and never on an interstate or in city traffic -- this
is how much I wanted help.
I am
fortunate to have recently had the help of a handful of brave and
sincere friends, a caring and compassionate lawyer, the support of the
attorney general in that state, and a judge that heard my case with
compassion.
Through these people I was able to leave that situation and find a truly safe
place and get help. I want to validate my history in being a victim of mind
control, not with gory details, but by stating what facts and locations that I
know to be true in my own life.
I have the documentation that validates these facts and keep them locked in
another place in the event anything should ever happen to me. My counselor
knows that they can be used if it were ever required, if I were suddenly
missing or found dead.
To explain why I think I was targeted to be revictimized, let me first share a
little about my history. I will not go into the gory details of abuse
and control that I experienced.
I
was born in the United States and delivered by a midwife. I currently have two
original birth certificate with two different names, a practice I find
extremely common with those affiliated with being mind control and military
backgrounds. Each is a legal document, so in reality I do not know if either
of the parents who raised me were my biological parents.
I am fortunate in that I have my medical records. I obtained these
through the military when someone in my family was diagnosed with a rare
illness and the physician wanted access to my medical history to help his
research at a well known university.
The records speak of a chronically dirty, fearful child with frequent seizures
and kidney infections. (Not so strange in a young female child that is
being abused.) At one time the records say that my parents overdosed me on
medications and I was hospitalized for days.
I was eventually sent to Walter Reed Hospital where I was diagnosed with
epilepsy. Epilepsy is a very common diagnosis in victims like me.
While a toddler, my father was stationed overseas and I remained there and
grew up. I have been many times to the wooded areas in that country.
There I saw an underground areas where medical protocols and experiments were
being conducted. There are hundreds of underground facilities all throughout
the United States and other countries that are used.
I remember important meetings that were fearful to me and the official
visitors that came to these meetings. I remember not only the ritual
teachings, but being forbidden to speak in English and only in the language of
that country and the importance of total obedience without question and
without hesitation.
I returned to the United States after my childhood and "training"
were sufficient and everywhere where my father was stationed had their own
underground facilities.
I did not even realize that I was a multiple or remember any abuse until
experiencing a traumatic event in my family. In trying to absorb the grief,
all these horrid pieces of my life came flooding out.
That was many years ago and there was almost no material on multiple
personality disorder and even PTSD was a new field of study. The therapist I
had knew little about multiple personality disorder, but that was the only
diagnosis he could give me that was appropriate.
He also told me years later that he had contacted many professionals in the
psychiatric field for help in treating me. At the onset he would only deal
with the parentally abusive aspects of my childhood. He said he just did not
know what else to do.
Because I felt totally lost, when I heard of this ministry that helped victims
of abuse, especially those with DID, I called them.
To make this long story short, the pastor assigned to me literally owned every
aspect of my life. I was kept without a phone and only permitted to go to work
and to church and study their teachings.
I was instructed to write down every memory I recalled, and any aspects
specific to my programming or the "process." I was tested off and on
"to help them learn more so they could help free others."
They would use various colored bright flashing lights, sounds and tones, sleep
and food deprivation, and several times gave me alcohol and medications
"to observe my behavior and programming while I was safe under their care
and observation."
I was told that this would help them "protect" me because this way
they could know where my weaknesses were, as well as help them rescue other
mind control victims. "After all, it was the least I could do if I
wanted to see others helped, and prove that I truly trusted them."
The ministry had its own form of mind control and I was used to being a
victim.
I was not permitted to purchase anything without asking and showing the
pastor the receipt if it exceeded the amount they set for me. I was forbidden
to talk to anyone except at work and was told to "trust no one in the
church because some of them are planted to trap people like me and take us
back to our handlers." No one was permitted to know where I lived,
including my employer, nor was I permitted to go anywhere unless one of them
were with me.
I became ill with pneumonia from the stress, lack of sleep, and an inability
to eat. It was suggested that in order for me to be safe, it would be best if
this pastor became my legal power of attorney. In that way I would be taken
care of if I were "in danger" or "too sick."
There was much discussion of legally changing my name. The pastor told
me if anything ever happened and I were to die, they would bury me in an
unmarked grave so I would never be located.
I was so terrified of my prior handlers locating me that "safe" was
a key word for me. "Safe" is a key word to many victims.
I was also terrified of these new protectors. It was as if I did not exist and
these people could erase me as if I had never existed and no one would know
where I was or even how to find me.
I had a grown child who had married, but I had not been allowed to contact him
since leaving. I had been relocated several times and no one knew where I was.
The utilities and every bill was in the name of the pastor assigned to me or
in another name.
I did not know how to drive very well, and knew absolutely nothing about
the place and the city where I now lived. Even the car I drove was
changed. I only knew the way to work and to church. I had no drivers
license, and literally no form of identification was on my person at any time.
Many of my possessions were taken and "placed in storage" at their
discretion. The pastor also had the key to my house and I was not permitted to
get my own mail, "to keep me safe."
He had total access to my house, my programming, and my power of attorney.
If I questioned anything, he would ask me if I wanted to go back where I came
from - and the abuse - or stay there and learn and be safe.
He called himself my protector. But, who protects you from the
protector?
If I wanted to be "safe" I had to trust him completely to know
what was good for me. I was "not able to judge things well
for myself because of my past and my programming," and I was to do as I
was told to prove that trust.
The pastor would come to my house while I was a work and go through my things.
He would take his set of car keys and go through the car, even telling me he
would place a tracking device on it "off and on" to "test
me" and to "make sure I was not sneaking off to occult
meetings."
I was totally isolated and terrified. Soon he also began to strip search
me to be sure I wasn't "still practicing" or "active for the
cult." He claimed that he was looking for marks or ritual cuttings, drug
paraphernalia, or any other thing he knew would be signs of my lying.
After I had been living under this terror for about a year, he began to access
my sexual programming and use it for his benefit and "to teach me it does
not have to mean pain when done right." He also used that
programming to experiment with, for his own satisfaction and perversions.
I lived in constant terror and confusion and isolation. One day at work
a credit card company contacted me about a bill. In the next months,
others started to call. I was shocked and in tears and finally confided
in someone that I had met at work.
I only disclosed the financial matter and they helped me contact the different
credit card companies. I had the bills and itemized statements sent to
me at work.
It took several months, but finally I was able to review all the debts.
There were FIVE credit cards in my name. I would never be able to pay
the debts on my salary, part of which went directly to that ministry and
pastor. I thought maybe I would try to sell the house I owned to pay off
the debts.
I contacted a lawyer to declare bankruptcy, and to review everything.
In the end, the pastor had sold my house using my power of attorney, and the
credit card debt totaled OVER seventy thousand dollars, not adding on all the
interest rates.
I was sneaking around and hiding the information and letters in my locker at
work or at my friend's house with my lawyer having copies.
I could not believe how I had been used and hurt by people saying they were
there to help victims like me.
My lawyer filed for bankruptcy. Things became so dangerous that even my lawyer
waited until I was out of state to file the bankruptcy. When the judge
heard the circumstances I had been in, he was irate.
I know this has been long.
I think what I want to say is that as bad as my life has been with the abuse,
somehow reaching out to get help and then being re-abused has been the hardest
hurdle to deal with.
I wonder how many "ministries" are out there pretending to help, and
hiding that they are willing to turn people - back in to the government
- that are trying to leave the mind control programs, or they are wanting to
use the victimization to their advantage.
I do know that that these "ministers" have tried to find alternative
backing for their "outreach ministry" and are still active in that
capacity through other churches in that state. There are victims out
there that they will find and will hurt, and that is the one thing that
bothers me most.
What makes me the saddest is that these pastors are out there and finding new
victims and using others, and not everyone will be as lucky as I have been.
Some will go back to their prior handlers, some will stay used and become like
just them, and some may tail spin into suicide - which is where I am sure I
would have ended up had a miracle not happened for me.
Thank you for letting me share with someone I think will understand.
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